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30 Days of Truth~Day 5: Something I Hope To Do In My Life


First here is a bit of a disclaimer: This is my blog. I find it easier to open up when I write, and I am very candid and to the point. Sometimes what I say is positive, sometimes it’s not. Sometimes  people may agree with me, sometimes they won’t. This 30 day challenge is all about raw honesty and self-examination. It is about being real with your feelings. It is not to cause drama, it is not to point fingers, it is not to do anything other than be real with myself as I complete this 30 day journey. I will not sugar coat things, and I will not deny myself the ability to express my feelings freely just because some of them may not be all rainbows and butterflies. I am a firm believer that if you feel something, LET yourself feel it. Get it out. Learn to heal. Right or wrong, feelings are just that: Feelings. And there is no personal growth if they are not dealt with or expressed. I am not doing this challenge to bash anyone or hurt anyone’s feelings. As a matter of fact, I am choosing to not go into specific names or relationships where applicable, because I do not want to create drama. But this is MY blog. It is my outlet to express myself  in any way I choose to. Life is not always happy or glamorous. I won’t lie to my readers or myself and say it is on here just to placate anyone or present things a way that they’re not. If I am having a great day, you will know it. If I am having a bad day, you’ll know that, too. This challenge has not been an easy one to take on, but I see more benefit to MYSELF in doing it than in not doing it. If you want me to keep things real, keep reading. If you cannot respect my right to talk about my own feelings and my life in a raw and honest manner, no one is forcing you to stay and read. That’s the wonderful thing about the internet. One click and you can go somewhere else, and anything you don’t like will be lost in cyberspace. Out of sight, out of mind. Now on to today’s challenge…..

 

 

Yay! Finally something less difficult and nerve-wrecking to post about! I wish all the questions were so simple and non-touchy… But then, it wouldn’t be much of a challenge, would it?

I am actually already doing what I want to do with my life. I know it isn’t glamorous, and it doesn’t give me VIP status or a hefty salary. I am probably making all the feminists angry by saying that I WANT to be a mommy and a wife. I want to clean up poop and play Patty-Cake. I want to give goodnight hugs and kisses. I am living my dream. Literally, the only thing that would make things better is if we were better off financially and could afford a home of our own right now, and didn’t have to live paycheck to paycheck. But other than struggling, which I know millions of other families are doing as well, I am living the high life. I have 2, soon to be 3, beautiful, quirky kids that I adore, and a man who loves us all. Can’t get much better than that!

But I don’t think that is the purpose of this post. Honestly, it’s kind of hard to think of something I would like to do… I have spent so much time being pregnant lately and focusing on my family that I haven’t really thought of my own wants.

I guess one thing, even though it’s pretty small, that I would like to do is learn to sew. I am domestic and love to cook, and I can do cross-stitch, but I cannot actually sew to save my life! Not by hand, and not with a machine. Ever since I have gotten into cloth diapering,I have found so many WAHM and etsy shops where these talented ladies make and sell their own diapers and accessories. I love the look of something handmade….So much more character than big brand goods, and I always feel good using something that I know has been crafted with love.  And think of the money I could save by making my own diapers and covers and all… Shoot, as it stands, Xander is going to be born in a month and we still don’t have enough dipes for the kids! (Yep, still stressing over it!) Now if I were a Domestic Goddess Extraordinaire, I could have already made dozens of them!

Maybe I will start looking on Craigslist and Freecycle for a free or cheap sewing machine. I have been interested in learning for awhile, so why not?

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December 11, 2010 - Posted by | My Story

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